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Surprise surprise

It was supposed to be 700 per day only…

… or not. It was supposed to be the minimum!
😀 😀 😀

When the stress goes out – the words come in
but only God knows what will become of this.

 

Posted in Camp WriMo, NaNoWriMo, The Solar Eclipse, Writing

Wet, wet, wet

A couple of days ago, I told you it finally had begun raining. That was next to nothing. Now, it really has begun raining. Except for the first couple of hours early this morning, it has been pouring down the entire day. It’s so welcome, it was really needed! But probably it’s yet not enough to turn that drought into a more normal state. So keep on raining for a while longer. Why not the entire week? To fill up the depot in the ground, that is supposed to be there.

I have spent the day on the sofa. A slight cold, mostly bothering my muscles, made me take the opportunity to do “nothing” today. Nothing but reading, writing and so on, that is. A little bit boring now when it’s early evening, but soon I’ll have dinner and then begin today’s session of writing to CampWriMo.

This is not my sofa, and this is not my dog since I have no dog. And I am not a dog, what that matter. But I like the image from Pixabay

So! Three days have gone with this task, and I’m doing well. Didn’t set the rib too high this time, and it seems that I have made the right choice. So far it has paid off! No stress, only an average of 700 words a day is needed, and with three day’s behind me I have now written 3105 words. There is something going on in the story that both surprises me and makes me curious of what will happen.

Maybe I should have my dinner now, so I can begin writing afterwards. 😉

Maybe something like this? No! I have no chickpea-pasta left. But I have some whole grain rice ready to eat. Yes! I eat the vegan way!
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Finally it’s raining

And finally, I’m here again. Both good – but in different ways. The rain because we all need it. Nature needs it. And I’m good because I need to be. To be back in writing mood.

It’s been almost three months since my last post. Well! I’ve been busy, you know! I just didn’t think this involuntary pause would last for such a long time. But now – I decided, and I made this decision very clear, first of all to myself, but also to some other people in my environment. Now was the time for writing here again! Finally!

Not only because of CampNaNoWriMo – but I guess that task helps to put another “do it” upon me. So, I’ve started. Today, I have! Embrace me and say “Halleluja”!

I’ve experienced a couple of times now, that too many words per day stresses me too much. I don’t feel well while writing, and later I have to throw away so much garbage that I have written. So 50 000 words in July is totally out of the question! Also 24 000 feels a bit too much, but 18 000 too little. So in the end I settled for 21 000 words. That’s 700 per day. Better to reach that amount – and keep on writing more, than forcing myself to write 1000, 1200 or 1600 words per day –  and then have to throw most of them away in the garbage dump. If I even will continue writing! I failed in April, you know! Forced me too hard!

But today! I reached for 700 – and got 923. See! I told you so!

I decided to keep on working with “The Solar Eclipse”. Part three now. And it seems to be heading towards the end. One fraction after the other is gathering in the city, and the big battle is getting closer… and closer…

So! That’s it! I managed to write a blog post here as well. Should really be writing something for my Swedish blog  too, and to the one about Food and Health. Also in Swedish.

And I should really do some homework! Like cleaning and such boring matter. Or I’ll stick that until really dark, vet and cold days? Nahhh… those days, such days, I’d rather prefer to read. Or something else that is cosy.

Posted in Brickstone - a story about love and misdemeanour, Camp WriMo, NaNoWriMo, Writing, Writings from the Heart

Day six – of CampNaNoWriMo

Image “Texture” – from Pixabay

”I don’t want to do this today.”
”Okay.”
”I don’t want to talk about it, this former part of my life.”
”You don’t have to!”
”I don’t even want to think about it!”
”So, don’t!”
”It’s been so much, today.”
”Okay.”
”After breakfast, I biked to the mall and bought thin pillows for my chairs on the balcony, and since it was beautiful weather I biked an extra round on my way home and got some really awful pain in the back due to that. I probably pushed myself too hard.”
”How far?”
”Only 9 miles.”
”But that’s good! How are you now?”
”Pretty well, thank you. But I got tired and then very sleepy after lunch so I slept on the sofa for a while. And of course, swallowed some painkillers.”
”Good for you!”
”And all the time I was thinking, I had to work on that website I’m creating for our non-profit organization! But the clock just tick-tocked away the hours.”
”And you?”
”What?”
”Did you tick-tock away the hours?”
”Haha! Could say! After my nap, I went out on the balcony, sat there reading in the sunshine for a couple of hours.”
”How nice!”
”Though I should have worked on that website…”
”Of course.”
”You see, the winter has been so long, so dark and so cold…”
”I know.”
”And now finally it was warm… and all blue sky… and the sun was shining so warm and lovely.”
”Of course you should sit on the balcony then.”
”Yeaahhh…”
”And relax for a while.”
”But I should have done the website…”
”I know.”
”But the back-pain eased up a bit. Slowly… it got less hurtful… less stiff…”
”Good for you.”
”I had also placed an add to sell my bed”!
”Aha.”
”And there was this person who wanted to buy it. They will come tomorrow and fetch the bed.”
”Good!”
”And later there were a lot of people who mailed me about the bed!”
”Oh gosh!”
”Some I dismissed at once, and some I answered I might already have a buyer. They were nice, so I decided to be nice.”
”So what do you do now?”
”Wait ’til tomorrow and hope those who said they will buy the bed won’t change their minds!”
”Of course!”
”I had begun writing the texts to the website from the brief notes I had but got interrupted all the time for a couple of hours.”
”Really?”
”Really. And then I knew you would come.”
”Yes.”
”There was absolutely nothing in my head to talk around!”
”Oh, I see!”
”All empty, you know!”
”I know!”
”Not good with an empty head, when you’re supposed to work on a website.”
”Of course, not!”
”And certainly not if you’re supposed to solve your problems!”
”What problems?”
”Oh! Stupid! You know!”
”I do? Oh yes! Yes, I do.”
”So now what?”
”How do you mean?”
”Are we gonna work on my memories today or not?”
”Do you want to?”
”No!”
”Do you feel up to it?”
”No!”
”Then we don’t! Not today! But how about tomorrow? Same place, same time?”
”Okay! See you!”
”See you!”

From Pixabay
Posted in Brickstone - a story about love and misdemeanour, Camp WriMo, NaNoWriMo, Writing, Writings from the Heart

After all – and again

Today!
Tuesday. March 31st. And therefore – tomorrow is the first day in April. And Wednesday as well.
I need…


CampNaNoWriMo begins tomorrow and I was so sure I would never, ever participate again! So what am I doing?

Well! I signed up! Again! Despite knowing better not to do just that.

Each time, two Camp and one November-NaNo last year, I signed up and it began very well. But also, each time, it has stressed me immensely the further the days had been passing by. And became a mere pain in the neck, the week before finishing it.

But I finished them! All three of them. I became a Winner! And every time I afterward said to myself – never again!

Does this gal ever learn?

Or is the excitement and the anticipation so much bigger, than the experience tells me about how menacing the stress is?

At the same time, I told myself to at least not to write in English again. Use my mother-tongue instead. It would be so much easier and faster writing.
But, what do I do? Well, of course!!!!! I write the foreword in English! … and it seems it will continue that way…

Is this gal stupid or something?

No. She Isn’t. She’s quite sane. But, I guess she likes the challenge, after all. And will not chicken out!This time I call it
“Brickstone! A story about love and evil Misdemeanour”.
I don’t know why I call it “Brickstone”. It just came to me. Like from somewhere beyond.

And it has nothing at all to do with my earlier writings. It’s completely new. It’s not even Fantasy/Sci-Fi

 

Posted in Camp WriMo, Health, NaNoWriMo, Writing

Scary expectations

After I had published the last blog post here about NaNoWriMo, I opened the site and logged in. Oh my goodness! It doesn’t look anything at all like the CampWriMo´s. I could neither make head nor tails out of it, and it rather scared me than pepped me to write.

… and this was just the beginning…

If I can’t even figure out how the site works, why should I bother to sign up? If something makes me unsure, how could that then be supportive? I guess I’ve better have my own NaNo-variety. Just write!

And as a matter of fact, if I can’t write without having a metaphorical crutch or two under my armpits, then what? I must anyhow sooner or later be self-dependent on my ability to keep on doing what I really want to do. Preferably sooner. And yes! I talk about writing.

It’s kind of like any medicament. You may have to rely on it for a while, to get you over the worst part of whatever it is. But then you have to take the responsibility yourself, for your own body and its health. Especially when you get nasty side effects. That tells you that your body doesn’t agree with those chemicals. Might have done so, at the beginning you even needed it! But not any longer! There are way better health-roads to travel.

You can walk the dog, you know. Even if you don’t have a dog…
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Soon November

And in November! You know what happens then, don’t you? Yes! Time for NaNoWriMo!

I said to myself after my two Camp-WriMo this summer, that I for sure wouldn’t participate in the “real” WriMo in November. Too many words to reach for. 50 000. It was stressful enough to reach my self-set goal of 24 000 in April and 30 000 in July. So no, no! I wouldn’t even think of signing up for 50 000 in November.

Then, just the other day, I read a post written by a Swedish blog friend of mine. She had, she wrote, participated in NaNoWriMo for many years, and not even read afterwards what she had written. So this year she won’t do it. No words about NaNo was good or bad or anything, just: No, not this year. And I guess the fact that she recently has got a book published, has something to do with that as well. And not self-published! No! By a real publisher. And not a particularly small one either. Now there are one after the other of newspapers and tv-shows, that want to interview her.

I haven’t got any book published, and furthermore – I haven’t even worked on my novel for more than a month. Okay! I have a reason for it, but is that reason really acceptable?

Anyhow! When reading that blog post, my brain started working. What if I, despite my earlier decision, sign up for NaNo after all? If I, don’t bother whether I reach the goal of 50 000 words or not. If I, don’t aim for anything particular at all – aka, don’t have a possible novel in mind. If I, try not to have the pressure on me that I HAVE TO write every day. AND! If I write in my own language. Swedish. So much easier, that would be!

If I only try my best to write every day and as much as possible, and see it more as an opportunity to get back to the habit of writing as my lifestyle! That would be quite nice, wouldn’t it? And if I with that approach actually do reach the goal and become a winner… WOW!!!

Then I would dance a Ninja dance – or something.

And what if I have become that slim as well at the end of November? Then the WOW raizes times ten. Or more. Though I can’t be that young as well…

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Is this how it is?

After finishing CampWriMo I gave myself two days off from writing. That was a week ago. And yes! You understand me right! I haven’t even opened my manuscript yet! Hardly written anything else either.

I knew it was a bit too high pressure on me, the number of words I had chosen and that I HAD TO DO IT. But I managed! I wrote! I got scenes to the story. And won! Of course, I am proud I reached my goal and finished as a winner, but even more – I also learned about myself as a writer. My way of doing it and that is awesome!

To have a daily goal of 1000 words or more, made me realize it was not until that point it started to flow. When I had reached “the must”, I relaxed and then good parts came. The story. I don’t say everything I wrote in those 1000 words was lousy, but I guess a lot has to be deleted or changed. A bit of wasted time? Well, don’t know… After all, I continued the story.

I knew something was wrong when I started to prolong the sentences with extra, unnecessary words, and splitting words that are normally compounded and so on – just to reach a higher amount of words in total.

So I guess my brain now needed more than two days off. It was the very same after CampWriMo in April. But I came back then, started to write again, and so I will now.

So how will I do it?
First of all! Getting used to daily writing again, but without having any pressure of how much – the amount will come later – and not get panic if something happens one or two days so that I’ll become unable to write. Like if my daughter and the kiddo come visiting again for a couple of days. I did freak out recently when they were here from Friday to Sunday. From not writing for two days…

I will go along a bit more slowly = work more thoughtfully! I might write very fast, I often do that, but when finished the scene or the chapter I have written, and before the next writing session, read the text through, make those “have-to-edit”s there are, and then go on writing the new.

I always used to work that way earlier, and for one thing – the entire text became better, less editing afterwards, AND I remembered the characters, the plot and what I have been writing earlier way better.
When I recently read this on-going story, there were so many parts I had forgotten about and what happened there! That did not feel good!

Conclusion!
Go back to my old routine way on how to do write.
Leave the pressure behind and go back to the joy!

And why not begin now? Not tomorrow! Not next weekend! Now! Today! There is a lot to edit! Presently circa 75 000 words…

Posted in Camp WriMo, Fantasy, NaNoWriMo, The Solar Eclipse, Writing

Soon there

I didn’t make it today. Couldn’t write all of the nearly 1700 words that were left. Maybe I had if it hadn’t started burning on one of the balconies here.
Such an exciting life…

BUT! I wrote 955, and have now only 700 words remaining. And I know with what I will begin writing tomorrow!

I see that as very positive!