Posted in Music, NaNoWriMo, The Lives and Whereabouts of Mz Eliza Elderberry, Writing

On the road!

I started my novel! … or what ever it will be.


I did reach 2049 words today, so why can’t I collect this badge? Does it have to be exactly 1667 words? Or do I have to get all those other badges first? Like: been writing 2 days in a row, 3 days in a row, 7, 14 and 21 days in a row – before I can get my well earned 1,667 words written in one and the same day?

Which, by the way, is almost on the dot exactly (this Elaine wouldn’t approve of) 1/30 of 50,000 words.
It’s actually 1,66666666666666666… and continuing like that forever… and ever…

Well! There are still glitches and bugs or something on that site. Maybe that is the explanation for this mishap. The major important thing is, after all, to be able to add the day by day achievements to the stats.

And I can do that. November 1, 2019 – 2049 words written.

YES! I brag! And will continue bragging! I’m proud of myself today! Maybe I am on the road again! My writing road!!!

Posted in Music, NaNoWriMo, The Lives and Whereabouts of Mz Eliza Elderberry, The Solar Eclipse, Writing

What a difference a day made

November. The first day of the month. NaNoWriMo-month.

In 30 days, I hope to have reached 50 000 words. I have no specific plan to what I shall write, but I had an idea to start with and so far, this first day, it went very well.

I have also decided that all I’m writing, shall be added to this NaNo-plan – that actually isn’t a plan at all – since my first goal, what I aim for the most, is to write every day, and as much as possible.

If the idea I started with today will turn into either a story of its own, or can be added to my fantasy novel about the Solar Eclipse and the Magic City, it will be wonderful.

If it leads to the fact that I also after November 2019 will continue writing daily – it’s not only a 50 000 word winning! It will be a much bigger price than just 30 days of hard work will render.

Posted in Fantasy, Movies & TV-series, NaNoWriMo, The Lives and Whereabouts of Mz Eliza Elderberry, The Solar Eclipse, Writing

Stage fright

When watching all those movies and TV-series, when reading all those books, when pondering all that I have written so far – is it beyond my reach, to write a whole novel?

Maybe I’m a bit morbid or something right now, for some reason, but there are all those thoughts rambling around in my head.

Do I doubt myself, my ability to write?

Not per se! I can write, I don’t doubt that. I know grammar – and I specifically mean the Swedish now – and I know how to spell. I can show instead of tell, and I’m really good at writing dialogues. I can “use” the language to build images for the reader, make them feel they are there, in the middle of the story…

But can I build an entire novel?

I can write short stories! And I do it well. Short stories are easy to write. Few persons. One scenery. One event. No other persons stories or actions. Not too long. I only have to focus on what actually happens, and make it live.

But can I build an entire novel?

I have always loved to watch movies and series, but lately, I’ve been indulging myself a lot in those worlds. I see the plots, always have, and how intriguing they are built by the author. Yes! I admit! They kind of scare me off, a bit.

Maybe I am, a bit morbid? Or maybe just a bit nervous about entering the NaNo in a couple of days. Not that I have anything to be nervous about, not really. I’m entering the task with open eyes! I don’t have a specific idea. I have no plot, not even an idea for a story.

My main concern is just to write… every day… for thirty days. Not adding any other expectations at all. And then – it will be, what it will be.

Still, I can’t help thinking – am I able to write a novel, an intriguing story with several characters, scenes and semi-plots that will mix and interact – or counteract – with the main story. Would I be able to make it catching, interesting, exciting – funny? Enjoying? To make it a whole story with ups and downs, with cliffhangers as well as smoothly ongoing parts. To make the characters into living beings, not ending up as flat paper-dolls?

At this very moment – I don’t know. But I realize I might only be seeing the matter in black and grey colours. Maybe there will be a story after all. And if I may wish for, and even pray for – something new that will continue my fantasy story with the work-name “The Solar Eclipse”. And “The mechanical Man”.

Maybe this Mz Eliza Elderberry that suddenly popped into my head a short time ago, will show up there, somehow, in that magical city surrounded by high mountain tops and a large, seemingly dead, desert.
And a weird solar eclipse.

I fear November, but I’m also looking forward to it.

Posted in NaNoWriMo, Writing

Just a little deep down self talk

I must say! I do look forward to NaNoWriMo.
Which might be a really odd remark, since I still haven’t written anything since the end of August or early September, thereabout. I have actually forgotten when… the last session…

But I DO look forward to it! I need that little pressure, I gather, to start writing daily again.

Where did my writing-self go? And why has she been gone so long? It’s like it’s harder to restart, the more days and weeks that have passed along without.

Now, now! Don’t be pessimistic, Thêa! It will be alright! Whether you realize it now, or not, you are mentally preparing yourself for November 1st and the whole NaNo-thing.

Everything will be just fine! All that shit is behind you! You are just fine as well! You’re not only walking and biking again! You are seeing friends and – yeah – you hoovered your flat today AND INDEED, even mopped the floors. If that isn’t a good sign – then, what is?

And furthermore, my dear Thêa. You have been THINKING about your fantasy novel!!! Not that you are going to continue writing on that one during November….

OR?

ARE YOU?

Nahhhh…. I didn’t think so, either. You have other stuff to write about.

Posted in NaNoWriMo, The Lives and Whereabouts of Mz Eliza Elderberry, Writing

I did it, after all

Decided to participate in NaNoWriMo. I blame Diana… NO, that sounds awful. I am grateful to Diana, who kindly asked me if I should join, and if so offered me to be her buddy. If anyone else of you who reads this is joining NaNo this November, I would be happy to be your buddy as well. Just search for Thea by Me! 😀

I haven’t the slightest clue yet what to write. I got a name for it in my head, and it will be some kind of fantasy/comic/satire thing with a little bit of romance added. I think. Or it will be something else.

The name? “The lives and whereabouts of Mz Eliza Elderberry”.
The hardest was to get her name. Then it placed itself in my head and after a while, I couldn’t help smiling over it. You will probably not see it, but to me, the name has a multifaceted meaning.

And actually – now I’m looking forward to this! There is just one more question I have to answer before November begins – will I write in Swedish or in English?

Writing in Swedish would, of course, be easier and faster writing, but in English… funnier? freer? More global, naturally, and if I want, I could post snippets of it on the blog once in a while, but…

Well! I have to sleep on that one for a while longer.


One thousand six hundred and sixty seven words per day in average…
hmmm…

It can be done! 😉

Posted in Camp WriMo, Health, NaNoWriMo, Writing

Scary expectations

After I had published the last blog post here about NaNoWriMo, I opened the site and logged in. Oh my goodness! It doesn’t look anything at all like the CampWriMo´s. I could neither make head nor tails out of it, and it rather scared me than pepped me to write.

… and this was just the beginning…

If I can’t even figure out how the site works, why should I bother to sign up? If something makes me unsure, how could that then be supportive? I guess I’ve better have my own NaNo-variety. Just write!

And as a matter of fact, if I can’t write without having a metaphorical crutch or two under my armpits, then what? I must anyhow sooner or later be self-dependent on my ability to keep on doing what I really want to do. Preferably sooner. And yes! I talk about writing.

It’s kind of like any medicament. You may have to rely on it for a while, to get you over the worst part of whatever it is. But then you have to take the responsibility yourself, for your own body and its health. Especially when you get nasty side effects. That tells you that your body doesn’t agree with those chemicals. Might have done so, at the beginning you even needed it! But not any longer! There are way better health-roads to travel.

You can walk the dog, you know. Even if you don’t have a dog…
Posted in Camp WriMo, NaNoWriMo, Writing

Soon November

And in November! You know what happens then, don’t you? Yes! Time for NaNoWriMo!

I said to myself after my two Camp-WriMo this summer, that I for sure wouldn’t participate in the “real” WriMo in November. Too many words to reach for. 50 000. It was stressful enough to reach my self-set goal of 24 000 in April and 30 000 in July. So no, no! I wouldn’t even think of signing up for 50 000 in November.

Then, just the other day, I read a post written by a Swedish blog friend of mine. She had, she wrote, participated in NaNoWriMo for many years, and not even read afterwards what she had written. So this year she won’t do it. No words about NaNo was good or bad or anything, just: No, not this year. And I guess the fact that she recently has got a book published, has something to do with that as well. And not self-published! No! By a real publisher. And not a particularly small one either. Now there are one after the other of newspapers and tv-shows, that want to interview her.

I haven’t got any book published, and furthermore – I haven’t even worked on my novel for more than a month. Okay! I have a reason for it, but is that reason really acceptable?

Anyhow! When reading that blog post, my brain started working. What if I, despite my earlier decision, sign up for NaNo after all? If I, don’t bother whether I reach the goal of 50 000 words or not. If I, don’t aim for anything particular at all – aka, don’t have a possible novel in mind. If I, try not to have the pressure on me that I HAVE TO write every day. AND! If I write in my own language. Swedish. So much easier, that would be!

If I only try my best to write every day and as much as possible, and see it more as an opportunity to get back to the habit of writing as my lifestyle! That would be quite nice, wouldn’t it? And if I with that approach actually do reach the goal and become a winner… WOW!!!

Then I would dance a Ninja dance – or something.

And what if I have become that slim as well at the end of November? Then the WOW raizes times ten. Or more. Though I can’t be that young as well…

Posted in Camp WriMo, NaNoWriMo, Writing

Is this how it is?

After finishing CampWriMo I gave myself two days off from writing. That was a week ago. And yes! You understand me right! I haven’t even opened my manuscript yet! Hardly written anything else either.

I knew it was a bit too high pressure on me, the number of words I had chosen and that I HAD TO DO IT. But I managed! I wrote! I got scenes to the story. And won! Of course, I am proud I reached my goal and finished as a winner, but even more – I also learned about myself as a writer. My way of doing it and that is awesome!

To have a daily goal of 1000 words or more, made me realize it was not until that point it started to flow. When I had reached “the must”, I relaxed and then good parts came. The story. I don’t say everything I wrote in those 1000 words was lousy, but I guess a lot has to be deleted or changed. A bit of wasted time? Well, don’t know… After all, I continued the story.

I knew something was wrong when I started to prolong the sentences with extra, unnecessary words, and splitting words that are normally compounded and so on – just to reach a higher amount of words in total.

So I guess my brain now needed more than two days off. It was the very same after CampWriMo in April. But I came back then, started to write again, and so I will now.

So how will I do it?
First of all! Getting used to daily writing again, but without having any pressure of how much – the amount will come later – and not get panic if something happens one or two days so that I’ll become unable to write. Like if my daughter and the kiddo come visiting again for a couple of days. I did freak out recently when they were here from Friday to Sunday. From not writing for two days…

I will go along a bit more slowly = work more thoughtfully! I might write very fast, I often do that, but when finished the scene or the chapter I have written, and before the next writing session, read the text through, make those “have-to-edit”s there are, and then go on writing the new.

I always used to work that way earlier, and for one thing – the entire text became better, less editing afterwards, AND I remembered the characters, the plot and what I have been writing earlier way better.
When I recently read this on-going story, there were so many parts I had forgotten about and what happened there! That did not feel good!

Conclusion!
Go back to my old routine way on how to do write.
Leave the pressure behind and go back to the joy!

And why not begin now? Not tomorrow! Not next weekend! Now! Today! There is a lot to edit! Presently circa 75 000 words…

Posted in Camp WriMo, Fantasy, NaNoWriMo, The Solar Eclipse, Writing

Soon there

I didn’t make it today. Couldn’t write all of the nearly 1700 words that were left. Maybe I had if it hadn’t started burning on one of the balconies here.
Such an exciting life…

BUT! I wrote 955, and have now only 700 words remaining. And I know with what I will begin writing tomorrow!

I see that as very positive!